So I've noticed of late that some of my symptoms are getting more intense after my weekly indoor cricket games - the most heavily affected are the burning lactic acid pain in my legs & sleep disturbance via the completely wired yet
tired, no exhausted feeling.
Now I'm sure normal healthy people would be thinking, so what? Pain is normal after exercise & it feels good - feel the burn! Likewise you get a euphoric feeling after exercise & the later exhaustion leads to deeper, better sleep, right? Well for ME/
CFS, wrong - dead wrong.
Due to abnormal aerobic metabolism, we (people with ME or
CFS, choose your term depending on your dodgy diagnosis, geographical location, whim of your doctor or personal preference, but that is another rant...) produce lactic acid most of the time, even at rest, so imagine how that ends up when you stress the muscles a little? Also the euphoric feeling is over-amplified & becomes sensory overload where noise & light are painful. As for the exhaustion, we get that but due to a combination of the pain & our brains being over-stimulated & not shutting down we simply can't sleep until we finally drop, usually around about the time we are meant to get up, joy!
Anyway, back to the topic at hand.... With this condition obviously muscle
deconditioning can be a factor due to them simply not getting used much, usually much less than the average sedentary "healthy" person (or really, Type II Diabetic who doesn't know it yet as the neglect they've inflicted on their body hasn't passed the point of them noticing it, yet...). Oh yeah, I'm meant to be talking about my exercise regime. *slaps head*
I've played indoor cricket for approximately the past two years. Initially I was totally useless even though I had played outdoor cricket for most of my teenage years & had played a fair bit of indoor too - at one point I was good enough to open both the batting & bowling in outdoor, though
admittedly I was in B grade. The brain fog had me not knowing where I was or what I was doing most of the time, I couldn't see the ball (
intermittent blurry vision is common with this condition), had no co-ordination & occasionally collapsed or just plain tripped over myself. Considering it is just for fun & a lot of people just turn up to
socialise & drink anyway most people probably thought I'd had one too many. :p
Over time I improved & became a bit less useless, I could concentrate for longer & longer & eventually I could almost get through the 4 overs of batting & still be able to see the ball - so my body was getting fitter &
deconditioning was less of an issue for me. Then about a year ago I started B12 shots,
Rivotril &
Endep & my sleep improved so pretty much everything improved, or at least got more predictable & manageable - far from cured but much improved quality of life - naturally the ability to concentrate added on top of my improved physical fitness (working around/within the limits of ME/
CFS of course) my batting & bowling improved & I began not to suck (as much anyway). Also the impact afterwards became more & more manageable - I used to be a little impacted that night (can't sleep, brain going 11
ty billion mph + pain) & maybe 1/2 of the next day of "hangover" & then back to my "normal" equilibrium - sometimes if I'd already done to much in the lead up to the Thursday
nite game I'd get a hit of post
exertional malaise (
PEM) 24-48hrs later, if I'd paced well I wouldn't - it was pretty sweet really.
Then Paige arrived & things changed....
Now the benefits of the drugs have
been negated plus some by the demands on a 2 month old & on a normal night I get to sleep at 2-3am (was 11pm), after indoor that was 1am is now closer to 4-5, even 6am - I've seen first light before shuteye on more than one occasion after a game. I'm still playing pretty well & kind of coping in daylight hours, but I don't wake until around a "
normal's" lunch time, plus the pain is getting worse & I can't really fiddle with my drug dosage more than I already am & it still doesn't seem to be enough on a non-cricket
nite, let alone on a cricket
nite.
Now bub is finally starting to sleep through so I can work on getting my sleep back into a semi-normal pattern, but I don't know if this level of activity will be sustainable in the long term
ie: when
wifey goes back to work & I'm a stay at home
alone dad.
Can I keep the benefits of playing indoor (some socialisation, a sense of being "normal", some fitness/exercise I can cope with, some sanity!) or will they have to be sacrificed for Paige's sake?
Time will tell I guess, got 4 months to figure it out (and get the
Datto on the road,
Jebus I'm screwed!).
Later,
Ash
Labels: ME CFS GET exercise pain deconditioning